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Unnamed Memory
Unnamed Memory
May 5, 12:30 PM
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Karasu wa Aruji wo Erabanai
Karasu wa Aruji wo Erabanai
May 5, 12:19 PM
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Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso
Shigatsu wa Kimi no Uso
Apr 19, 5:58 PM
Completed 22/22 · Scored 8
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Mean Score: 10.00
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Kokou no Hito
Kokou no Hito
Dec 22, 2023 1:43 PM
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Gintama
Gintama
Nov 26, 2023 1:35 PM
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Fushigi Neko no Kyuu-chan
Fushigi Neko no Kyuu-chan
Nov 22, 2023 11:37 AM
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Hazbyn Apr 24, 12:28 AM
Thanks a lot for your kind words; it has been hard since I remember every day, but it's not as bad as it used to be. I know is a bit unorthodox, but I decided to cremate her, so now whatever I go I will take her with me; the day it hit the hardest was when I received her ashes. I am doing a bit better, though I still miss her.
I hope your friend is doing fine; losing a beloved pet is one of the most horrible experiences ever.
Don't worry about late replies; aside from my cat dying I have also had some other issues the past few weeks, so I wasn't able to reply as fast as I like. I hope everything goes well in your new career :)

I am from South America, Chile specifically. I watched the scene where Neferpitou begged Gon to give them more time in Spanish and Japanese, and in all honesty, in the Spanish version, Pitou sounded way more convincing; their despair and worry felt so real and even appealing. Kurapika is incredible, it is amazing how he started learning Nen and he got such an overpowered ability; though I must say I felt bad for Pakunoda, especially in the 1999 version. In the 1999 version, her final scenes lasted a bit longer, and it was compelling to see her being happy with the cats.
Aside from Killua and Neferpitou, another one of my favorite characters is Feitan; the archetype of short height/patience can be very funny sometimes. Plus, he is such a beast while fighting.

It was nice to hear from you; I hope you have a great week C:
D4RK501 Apr 21, 7:06 AM
Is it worth watching Gintama? I see that you like it and I wanted to watch it for months but I'm hesitating just because I usually don't watch older stuff
effy_ Apr 21, 3:08 AM
adding: Apothecary Diaries might interest you too!
effy_ Apr 21, 3:04 AM
Hello!!!!!! ♥♥♥♥

(I think it´s time to ask what is your name tehee, privately though if it´s ok! I am just curious and incredibly interested in names and their etymology because sometimes I am nerdy like that :D)

how are you? how are you dealing with exams? stress? where are your thoughts? decisions? how is your family?

I must admit I don´t remember what I did on Easter holidays, probably took some rest and tried to catch up on sleep. I hardly ever do anything special. the biggest activity for me is to sometimes go on a hike with my friends, but I don´t think that happened. I was supposed to go on one today but even though I always live in denial of "I cannot be sick, I am an ironwoman" I actually crumbled under some horrible sore throat, headache and running nose today and stayed at home because tomorrow is a work day and no way am I ever gonna miss a day at work. you see, I suck at my job but at least I come up to my head and say I HAVE NEVER MISSED A DAY AT WORK, ha! literally the only good thing about my presence - I am always there :D.

have you already found a summer job? maybe some tutoring? I mean everyone sucks at Maths anyway so you´d get rich pretty quick and I am not even trying to be funny, my colleague who is a Maths teacher tutors and he has been able to be paying off his mortgage with that :D. what are your summer jobs like? I know some people choose to work in those food stalls or restaurants, shops etc. I usually did baby sitting, summer camp or language school teaching. I hope you´ll get to find a good place where you can learn and also have some fun with colleagues!

studying is hard and uni is mostly about not giving up rather than being the smartest kid in the class. I also think it´s fair to want being interested in what you are actually studying. I really do hope that you get to sit down and calmly decide which major is the best for you and the majors you have talked about all sound like prosperous and good choices. I think your mum might just be worried that if you choose to change the major, what if you choose to change the major again and again? but from what I see you are very responsible and not as finicky. still even if the worst case scenario happens, what´s wrong with having a high school diploma? many of my high school classmates make more money with their HS diploma than I do :D.

my mum not long ago told me "well, now you should go and study what you have always wanted!" at my age? now? in my 30s? I am finally allowed to study what I want :D. you see, I was applying to study English literature back in the day, so now I am finally allowed to do what I have always wanted when I have a stable job ? fork that seriously. I wish I did what I wanted before having to be molded into this responsible adult boo.

also biotechnology or biochemistry has always sounded to me so interesting! I would not be able to do that because I sucked at chemistry and it would have been too hard for me, even since I was a babe, I was pretty much into humanities, but honestly, seeing how many choices you have, I would just take it easy! if you pass, you pass, if you don´t. please, don´t beat yourself over it and just try another major. you are young and I promise that broadening your horizons helps you in life immensely. the knowledge you get to absorb!! aaaaa, trust the old me :D.
but I know this talk is some weeks old so I am curious to read how things are moving forward for you!

let me humour you with my current situation :D. I am obviously DYING here, being nervous and all but please feel free to laugh because this is crazy.
so, I had THE talk with the head teacher concerning my future. actually we all had that interview, one by one. because we needed to sort out the next year (this year it came a bit sooner, usually it´s like mid-May but due to many changes like people coming back from the maternity leave etc. it came sooner) so I came in and he said he really wants us all to have jobs but the problem is there are gonna be more English teachers than needed and whether I would be ok with teaching other subjects (or classes) so I said .. suuuree??? and he said whether I would be ok to teach year 1 (7 year olds) to which I said "well, I am not completely against it but I think someone who is a true professional should do it" and at the moment when I was saying MAYBEEE, WELL, I HAD THOUGHT ABOUT IT he was writing down my name for the potential teacher??? this is the hardest age to teach, they are like little animals running wild :D and you have to mold them, the youngest I have ever taught were the second graders and it was ooof freaky. anyway!!! then we continued and he said whether I would be ok with teaching Maths and because my brain went "money, you need money, you need that job" I said ... listen .... YES??? I said yes? :D :D :D remember how I have told you that humanities is the thing I can get and then my brain is like "boom, boom, butterfly" ? :D this is like the joke of a century :D. anyway, I will know by mid-May, maybe sooner. of course in the end of the day, it can turn out to be ok! like maybe I will have the same classes and someone else will take those and I really think they need to reconsider giving the Year 1 to someone else. I also think even if I had to teach Maths it would not be the older students (Y8 or Y9 because we have entrance exams in Y9 and you need to prepare them properly) but maybe it will be funny. in the end of the day, I might be overblowing things, but that doesn´t change one thing. I am nervous as hell :D and until I know for sure, I will be :D.

tbh, the self-improvement videos are just all the same, all the time :D. be confident! don´t mind others! be strong! Marcus Aurelius said...! I have seen so many of them, there is a hole in my head dedicated just for them :D. the only good thing they taught me was that a check list keeps you productive which is fair :D.

good to hear that you have sorted those things out! sure, blocking someone might seem like a hasty decision but I think often times it is the best to just do the strict decision to save yourself. hopefully he does improve himself but that is for another person to witness. you cannot save everyone. however, reading you making peace and working on your friendship! that´s a true keeper right here!

yay! Edinburgh sounds nice! I have never been but I have heard from a lot of people it is nice! it has this slightly gloomy, Victorian atmosphere! hope the weather is good though because it´s usually a bit unpredictable in those part of the UK, but you´ll see. I have never travelled with friends either tbh! sounds a bit sad at my age though :D.

Your lie in April, I have not watched. I would recommend probably Mashle because it is just so nice! I also enjoyed Classroom of the Elite but that is because generally I am a fan of it :D. Solo Leveling was good as a shonen but it had such a weak plot, I was a bit meh. I will probably watch S2, but it was mediocre at best. Jinwoo is a likeable character though!

but I understand that when there are million of other things going on through your head and you need to deal with them, anime is kind of ... not exactly your priority. I am just thankful that you still visit this site and we get to talk (not that we would not be able to do so on Discord, but still, it´s where we started!)

btw, when does your summer semester end? we usually had classes till the end of April and May (and June if needed) were the exams period. when do you get to relax??? aaa

all the best
lots of health and strength
good stuff to you and your family

p.s. I am certain that you will make a good decision for yourself.
kyoumashi Apr 19, 2:33 AM
Hi !! thought I'd say hello :) wassup with you lately
LibertoList Apr 7, 11:15 AM
heyy
just in case you're worried of why it's taking me so long to reply , i wanna let u know that i'm having a lot of things to prepare for in the next months especially the finale exams
so you may notice that i'm still updating my anime eps while not replying but i can confirm to u that i'm not ignoring u and it's just my way of beating stress
i'll try to find the right time to reply

and i hope that everything was great for u in these last months !
Hazbyn Mar 6, 8:05 PM
Honestly, I've been better; my cat died a few hours ago. She was my baby girl, she always enjoyed getting a pet, she usually slept with me but also liked my parent's bed since it was bigger, and now she is gone. I will miss her so much.
I had to look after her most of the day, but even if I thought there were chances for her to make it, I knew they were very slim; tell me, what have you been doing? Are you working? Perhaps studying?
I must say, these days, Netflix has helped me a lot in dealing with my cat hahaha. I finished watching the 2011 version of Hunter x Hunter; I must say I understand perfectly well why Killua is the most popular character of the series, and I have this weird soft spot for Neferpitou. I decided to watch the Spanish dubbed version, and listening to their voice while pleading with Gon to let them heal Komugi was striking; Pitou's voice trembled and they were in so much despair that I found it to be a fantastic voice-acting role.
I hope you are doing fine; have a great week :)
Yato66_ Mar 3, 4:33 AM
aww thank you^^ sorry i only noticed this now jdshjf but i did have a great bday^^ (also help idk how to reply on mal without it showing on your profile;;)
zillionnnnnn Feb 29, 7:06 PM
Holy shit I didn't realise it was like a month and a week since the last message wtf 😭 I knew it was long but not THIS long.

ooooooo wait what are the topics you'll be studying next semester??? LMAOOOOO o got faith in u to get through this year alive 😭😭 if you're not alive by the end of the year just let me know so I know not to wait for your messages anymore! LMAOO yeahhhh I think u told me? did u also tell me u did good on the most recent exam, but because u did really bad on the previous ones it didn't matter or did I just make all of that up? but wait, if u fail the retake in June, what happens?? Nah good job seriously LMAO if I was in ur position I'd have for sure either dropped out, killed myself, failed all my exams and then killed myself! so yeah good job for not doing any of those!
LMAOOOO nooooo I'm so sad we can't raise a baby tiger man:(((( I read somewhere that if u raise it since birth, it'll think your it's mother so it'll like never Attack you 😭😭😭 so I guess operation raise tiger is no longer possible:( capucachin monkeys???? I don't think Ive ever heard of that in my life 😭 I only know of one type of monkey which is ummmm... monkey? and ape! but apes a different thing to a monkey right? so yeah nvm I only know of one type of monkey then 😭

Hmmmm I see, you're really putting me off watching wonka now LMAOO, I was never planning on watching it anyway I think, but now I'm like against the idea of watching it 😭😭 noooooo I havent watched lalaland :( but yeah I've heard a lot of people say its really good, I remember I wanted to watch it but just couldn't be bothered, I think it came out around 2016 right?? because I'm pretty sure it won movie of the year or something? oh noooooo I also haven't watched the greatest showman even though that's something I actually still want to watch 😭 that has soo many good actors in it too:// I think my favorite musical is ummm..... god I couldn't tell u, but probably an animated Disney film of some sort:) and let me know how wish goes then if u do end up watching It😭 random story, but I remember constantly begging my friends to watch barbie but everyone kept saying no :( I hope u enjoyed that short but kind of sad story :) I didn't really care too much tho as I mainly wanted to watch barbie for the memes LMAO.
yupppp you've told me about ur practical exam!!! Good luck on it!!!! I hope the next time u reply to this comment you're telling me about how well you did on it:) LMAOOOOO he said you looked like a milf???????? that's actually really funny 😭😭😭 ohhh u found it funny too????? I'm glad u found it funny then LAMOO, I wouldve been dying too 😭 i feel like that's one of those jokes that will either make the other laugh or just disgust them so I'm glad it worked out for bro 😭 broooooo yeahhh I'm both shy and scared when it comes to confessions 😭😭 I think that's pretty normal tho... right? idk man I'm bad at these things LMAOO. ohhhh okok good u feel the same at least 😭 ooooooo it's story time now???? let me concentrate now.
ps. I just opened up the spoiler and I know why it took u 3 hours omg that's long I can't wait to read it LMAO

Hmmmm I see.... sounds like things were up and down then at the start I guess? With more down then up I think LMAO? but okok he was going through some shit, that kind of makes sense maybe?? idk tho, because this is my personal opinion and from my experience, guys are like really really good at hiding emotions, so like maybe him being cold had to do with his problems? but imo even if you have problems, it's still extremely easy being nice and loving and happy to the people u care about, this is my opinion tho! so I guess I'm trying to say he MIGHT have been using that just as an excuse .... again my opinion could be wrong!
Ahhhhh oh wow, he did what I was afraid to do no way LMAOOO 😭😭😭 but ok he's totally in the wrong in this, like if he actually cared about your birthday, he'd for sure remember, he could do things like add it to his calender or something so he can't forget ygm? like, I forget my friends birthdays and they are the same for me, but we really don't care about birthdays like that, but I always remember my familys (and even that female friends birthday) because I know these people love birthdays! or maybe I guess maybe he just has worser memory then me Somehow LMAOO 😭😭 omg u guys texted each other that day too??? ahhhhh nooo u were stressing on ur birthday about that? :(((( sure I don't mind you sending Me that stuff on discord!! nahhhh you let that slide??? (tbh I'd let it slide too but that's only because I don't care about my birthday LMAOOO but its different in ur situation) you're amazing for forgiving him LMAO, if I was that pissed and stressed the whole day no way I would've forgiven him so easily 😭😭 ohhh OK... straight downhill from here... 😭😭
Yupp ill happily see this apology video!!! OMG LMAOOO, I can't believe he'd say that to you, and you said that back too (this is in reference to him seeing other people irl in case your confused). But being completely honest, that is really bad that u said he could do that 😭😭 but here's the thing, like I'm soooooo sure that I'd have said the same thing in that situation 😭 maybe because we're both just stupid :/ but nah because what else could u say that would end happily, you could say nah I won't let u, this will result in him hating, and there's probably other options but I don't feel like discussing them all, point is being that every choice would end badly because that mf really decided to say that 😭 LMAOOO stop saying you're delulu yo you're making me laugh too much in this serious topic 😭😭 ohhhhh okok, seems like he was opening up to u at this point, damn he told u some fucked up shit??? you're a good person fr LMAO for not judging and staying with him. okok maybe everything isnt fine????? okokok it's actually all downhol from here now LMAOOO??? Also, I feel like I'm just providing commentary over this with these last few lines 😭😭 but so far, with those last few sentences, it seems like to me he just wanted to feel loved by you, even tho he may not love you himself? like he just wants attention maybe, could also be trying to emotionally manipulate? especially with how he's saying he doesn't want u to forget u love him?? hmmmmm ....
he started treating you like a bro???? I totally understand that LMAOOO, I'm like the king of that no lieeeee, all of my female friends have told me I'm too bro friendly and idk how to fix that 😭😭😭 Holy shit u guys had a close birthday then, urs is 12th right? or 13th?? that's like 1 week difference which is crazy. anyways I'm sorry I got distracted, back to the story. wait when u say he treated u more like a bro, does this mean he treated u less romantically? I know I said I knew what this means, but I need to confirm LMAO. wait he didn't listen to your 18 song playlsit????? that's actually crazy bro, I always try to listen to playlists people make me, because of the effort they go through to make it, and I don't even listen to music much 😭😭 LMAO your friend is a real one yo, I love her, she kept it real!!! LMAOOO I also love that you keep saying you're being delulu 😭😭😭 but I can't blame u, if u like him it's hard to let go 😭
ohhh did was the fight/argument he had with the owner public?? what do u make of it? like who was in the right and stuff? sure thing I'll take the screenshots again! but imo, him saying this stuff to you is just him asking for attention, and not in the good way, I think he was just manipulating you at that point in order to make himself feel good, I think... gotta say I think in case I'm wrong 😭
LMAOOOO nah u saying delulu is making me lose it yo 😭 LMAOOOO wait bro isn't that a good thing? not that he ghosted u for hours (Holy shit I just realised I do this on a daily basis, I do apologise LOL), but that he had a matching pfp with u and that he had the lyrics that reminded him of you??? that sounds good to me no?? lmaooo Oh yeah I forgot u told me he was a sadist 😭 that's so crazy btw. ohhhhhhh never mind then LMAO, he was matching with someone else... yeah okok makes sense now why it was bad LMAOOOO. hmmm okok, I'm surprised you were still talking to him at this point, you're actually a good person fr 😭
ohhhhhhhh, wait how do u know if someone has a matching pfp btw??? like what if they just have a cool pic of someone!!!!! my bad I got sidetracked again LMAO. ohhhhh I see, yeah your friend is amazing then, it seems like she's pretty accurate wifh what she said, we kind of said the same thing too! LMAOO yeah u are kind of crazy for still caring about him 😭 but I can't blame u, that's what love doesssss! but umo u should just cut him off, clearly not good for ur health in any way, and he doesn't seem like the greatest person from what I've heard of LMAOOO.
oh yeah, that was a really entertaining story frrr!!!!!!! I think I've given my opinions on it??? idk I feel like I was yapping a lot LMAOOOOO.
ok that's one update and a half... I'll ummm not respond to that here...

LMAOOO I guess so 😭😭 Yup, self focus is the best thing fr, idk if I'd say I don't want a relationship atm tho... more so that I'm not looking to be in one? does that make sense? like I dont dislike the idea of being in a relationship, but I'm not bothered actively looking for one!
oh yeah, I'm just hoping the one day I wish him happy birthday randomly will be the day it's actually his birthday 😭😭😭 like surely one of the days it's bound to be right??? right???? Idk, I should find out his birthday tho ngl LMAO. LMAOOOO wait what did they do to my insta... oh yeah one of them posted a story saying "I miss you x" x being ex LMAOOOO. Holy shit I just remembered, one time when I was like 14, me and my friends were so bored playing games, they decided to all post on their snapchat story saying "rip @zillionn" and everyone thought I was dead for an hour LMAO, then they had to post saying how everything was a joke as things were escalating, but then they got some backlash from some people saying stuff like u shouldn't joke about this etc, then things became a blur but plenty of drama happene LMAOOO.
OH LMAOOOOO YEAH I WAS LAUGHING QUITE A BIT TBH 😭😭😭😭 but that was mainly because your storytelling was funny af 😭😭😭

ohhhhhh you guys watched it with ur mics muted???? okok you see that I actually would love to do with my friends LMAOOO, at least that way I know them mfs won't be disturbing my shit all the time. ohhhhhhh odd taxi, wait thats actually a really good anime 😭😭 no way that yapper of a friend made u stop watching a good anime smh, this is why i hate yappers, in a movie setting of course, I love yapping everywhere else
LMAOOOO, I actually completely forgot what word u was talking about, "fratellone" ahhhhhhh I really want to remember it but like I'll never be in a situation where I need to use it so I'm going to end up forgetting it AHHHH.
Ohhhh fuck, I completely forgot I told u about the fake tinder account story on here smh, well we are already having that topic of discussion on discord so I'll just leave it alone here 😭😭😭 how tf did we manage to go to the same topic, I guess I just love yapping about the same things LMAOOOOO
Ohhhh LMAOOOO okok that sounds server but I think ill pass 😭😭😭 I'm way too inactive to deserve to be on servers LMAOOO, and idk about u, but I can only comfortably text in gcs when It's filled with people I know of! if there's people idk, I get scared, which is kind of weird because irl, if someone was to introduce me to a group of his friends, I think I'd be good and I'd be able to vibe? idk but text is different 😭 ohhhhh the one where he rage quitted??? nahhhhh LMAO, that certainly does sound like an eventful server! 25 people?? now im even more scared LMAO, I think the most people I've had in one gc which was on WhatsApp was like 22 people or something 😭 but yeah thanks for the offer, I'll let u know if I ever change my mind!!!!!!!!!!

BROOO I had that exact conversation today with a friend, because yesterday he told he slept for 10 hours, and he said he felt soooo tired the day, and then today he had like 5 hours of sleep; but he felt much better???? lifes just so confusing man I swear, and I've just been feeling tired the whole week LMAOOOO.
LMAOOOOOOO well then.... just try not to fail them again..... please 😭
YUPPPP, I loved the yapping!!!!!!!!!!

LMAOOOOO, well enjoy this response, I hope my response was useful/interesting/funny/not bad/just good! and have a great timeee whenever you're reading this!!!!!
7_3 Feb 28, 1:21 PM
Thanks a lot for the supportive words!! :D That sucks, but I'm sure you tried your best on that exam. Use your past mistakes as stepping stones and I'm sure you'll be able to retake it like a champ, haha. My week's been less hard than previous ones. Family stuff is lighter, though I'm still not being able to attend school for multiple reasons, to the point where the school keeps calling my mom asking where I am. At least I have an easier time doing the homework, haha.

Out of curiosity, what's your best/favorite subject?
effy_ Feb 26, 4:37 AM
Hello dearie,

sorry for taking my time and replying just now.
how have you been? have things turned out for the better? for your family things as well as the friendships?

I can absolutely understand how having a lot on your plate might distract you from replying to MAL comments. it is ok. life is what it is. sometimes you might be really busy and there could be no time to reply or you could just not feel like to. I don´t want you to push yourself and feel like I would guilt trip you into replying. please reply with joy, if you ever feel like you need a break, it´s fine just to say that you need to turn your online world off and concentrate on the real one. I´ll be there when you are back.

CONGRATS ON PASSING THE EXAM!!! so proud. can´t imagine how hard that had to be because I was really bad at Maths!! I admire everyone who studies science but you already know it. you have my endless respect. I know you can do your physics one. Does your school offer tutoring? we didn't have those, but I know that for example other faculties had tutors among older students who you could ask to help you out with essays or some subjects. I guess if there were maybe you would have already done so maybe my suggestion is absolutely useless but I felt like saying something useful. sorry. Physics is hard, my brain could never... I understand your mum wanting the best and possibly being a perfectionist, really fearing for your future as every mum probably does, but you are an adult and your role in life is not to fulfill anyone´s expectations. we must be polite to our parents, appreciate their care and effort but in now way, we are obligates to give them our hearts and mental health. my parents have their own issues, I love them to bits, but even I know I can´t solve all their problems and there are things that I want to do on my own. there are small acts of rebellion that I do too like fighting against their toxicity. your mum probably nags you not realising the damage it may cause you because that is what mum do, but just learn how to not take it too close to heart. brush it off and don´t allow those words break you. there is no share in trying different things, quitting or just repeating a class. so what? do you really think it will matter in ten years? what a piece of crap.
I wasn´t the best of the bests. I had to retake several exams, I have never had a "red" diploma and? there are also people who have never finished uni and they are still thriving in life and I am not saying that to make you feel less ambitious. you should strive to be the best! but you also should allow yourself to find other options and possibilities.

but we have all been there as students, life will sort itself out. no worries. I am on your side. let me share my lucky stars.

omg, that is so nice! please keep imagining her! :D thank you! but I could only dream of that!

oh Jesus, so sorry for your experience too. the thing is our friends were probably just really sad and didn´t know what to do. what they did was trying to get attention. I mean, it is obvious that my friend did the things because she knew that by trying to kill herself people would eventually just do whatever she wanted because whenever she would disagree she´d use "I´d kill myself" excuse and you knew she would do that so everyone around her walked on tiptoes. it´s selfish and horrible, but also really really really sad. just how unhappy and lonely do you have to feel to ask for attention this way? just how broken and insecure? but again, it is not mine or yours job to make people happy. we can help, we should help but we are not professionals. and frankly, I feel that unless the person decided that they want to improve, they never will no matter how much you might persuade them that life is indeed beautiful. damn, life is freaking hard. death is easier. so what if it hurts? it might hurt for 30 minutes but life is long and tiring. living takes a real courage. I really admire people that actually pull themselves up, who never give up, who fight for their right to live, who despite anything find the will. come on, life IS beautiful even when it´s shitty. have you ever been outside when the flowers are blooming and the sun is shining? come on! even when the world is falling down, isn´t that wonderful to just look at THIS?

thank you for not judging me and my experience. I know I was a bit pathetic in some ways. I did what I did, I cannot change it, but it all led to my persuasion that change and healing is not some funny joy ride. it´s painful, long, annoying and requires patience and if you are too comfortable with your demons, no one can help you and the least me. I can understand, I can support but the whole threatening thing about "I will kill myself if ..." NO. I was once told:



it´s bullshit but you just have to live with this fear. so I try to fight that feeling every day.

the friend that confessed - has that got any updates? because Jesus Christ and Saint Mary this just sounds so fucked up. why can´t people just be decent? kind and honest? if only at least honest? I am so sorry you had to meet such a dumb friend. that was unfair to you. immaturity plays a key role probably but still that should not excuse he sounds like a jerk. I hope he has managed to improve or explain himself.

I am glad that you managed to work it out with your friend! that is how it is supposed to be. if your friendship is strong, it can withstand that! glad to hear THAT friend is a good person at least! of course it takes time but kuddos to him for trying and being solid! it happens that people turn you down but doesn´t mean you are bad or that they are! nothing to be ashamed of! I mean, life is short so why not giving it a shot? of course I felt awkward and just hated myself, blaming my ugliness and stupidity but well, a galon of ice cream and chocolate helped me get over it :D. plus I always stare at Minho and those guys were not Minho so who cares :D.

yeah, I am on spring holiday now so I am sending out CVs. I have sent out 6 so far and only got one answer but we´ll see how it goes! life is interesting at once ... I guess??? adrenaline :D I´ll try to look for a job in education till June and if nothing works out I´ll try elsewhere. life needs to go on, something has to come up, right?

thank you for your kind words!!!

sure, let´s see how it goes! not sure what is gonna happen this summer but if there is a chance. I have never been to Wien either so that would be cool though Wien is a bit far from me, but it is not far from my sister´s so I might take it as an opportunity to annoy her :D.

oh my new PC is Lenovo so kind of mediocre from what I have heard? but I am also not a gamer or a developer so I just hope it will last 10 years as well as the last one.

which anime are you planning to watch once you have more time?

yay! sounds good, let me know if you like the playlist! hope it will bring you luck!

all the best to you and your family!
love you to the moon and back!





HarrisonRoll Feb 21, 7:30 PM
also i have sent a friend request on discord, my name will be tombstone on there
HarrisonRoll Feb 21, 7:13 PM
I'm majoring in Interdisciplinary Studies after way too many major changes. I'm in Historical Studies. And yea, I liked Bocchi, it was cute. Kind of like your responses haha
LibertoList Feb 21, 4:09 AM
Hey , it's been a long time since i replied to you , i hope things were great at that time and nothing bad happened , and thank you for the wishes !
i've benn great , except meeting with some reeaally rude people who comes out from no where just to destroy my mood , and that's their goal , but i'm trying to avoid them as much as i can

well i've got a lot of gifts , but most of them were financial so i can continue my studies normally ,

i did great with philosophy , but Math was........well i can define it in a single one word , a ''Chaos'' , even after all i did it feels like my efforts are now extremely meaningless , i'm having another one next week , it's another try for those who got less than the average but idk , i don't think that i'll do better , BUt i'll try even knowing that it's definitely worthless

Oh , i see how your school system works there , well i think that it's better than the one here , i mean ours is literally consumerist and everyone here knows that , that's why most of people here fails , in conclusion , i see that morocco's education system is the worst in the world , and my goal for now is to graduate from highschool and continue my studies in a foreign country
, i told my parents about it and they're okay with my decision , Anyways what do you think ? do u encourage my decision ? please be honest and feel free to say whatever u want ,
And i understand , it's just the same with the finale exam that i'm about to pass in june , but there is a little difference , because we have to study for all the things we did in the whole year ( almost 10 months )
and i'm glad that you've got 22 by 30 on your exam

yeah of course , August is perfect , but i'm actually okay with it if it's from june and more , cuz the exam will probably be in the 4th and 5th

well , we have Math , physics , sports , philosophy , arabic , french , english , geography and history and islamic education wich i don't really know if you've ever studied any religious subject in your high school before because i really want to know

i'm sure you'll enjoy solo leveling

hmmmm , not actually , this one i'm having right now is just a gift from my uncle who lives in switzerland , most of things i'm having are from him and i'm very grateful to him, i may ask him about that if he can

yeah , i did rest well , the travel was in tangier , but it was too short and i barely felt it

Just like i've said before , they were better , even my mental health increased which is really good , oohh yeah i remember that time when i was listening to one of his best albums , he's not my fav artist but he's one of the most i listen to , if u want to discuss about music here then i'm ready for it because i really want to see other things you listen to , and thank you for ur compliment on my taste , your taste seems great too from what i see you're listening to on discord

okay , thank u for the advice , and ur're right , my sleep is more important even tho i keep having some problems with my sleep schedule sometimes , especially in summer

Also , how u been doin in these last 2 days ?






HarrisonRoll Feb 14, 9:23 AM
You're way too nice, my day is going well. Just finished Bocchi the Rock and very tired at college ;-;
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