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Not bad. Trying to learn some new things. At my age maybe it's middle-life crisis, or maybe not xD
Anyway - not giving up.

Sorry for being late, but happy birthday \o/

I understand all too well. I always just wanted to do what I want, instead of sitting 10h in the office or somewhere else, but yeah, world is ruthless and money is needed for anything. The balance is possible, as always. Depending on what you really love to do.

For example, I grew up and made friends thanks to video games. Now I'm linked to them job-wise, so I could say I hit the good spot. Reality however is not always that cute and even when you do something you like, you will feel tired, burned out etc. occasionally.
The money is average, but it is enough for me, so I guess it's fine.

Ha, I'm going to be super grim with this sentence, but the ending is known and everyone has the same - death :D However, the journey is what matters! So I wish you a great journey and finding your place and balance :)

More or less good, one guy from work died a month ago and another I liked is about to quit and I'm in the mental crossroads now. Should I stay or go somewhere else as well? No clue.
I'm playing a lot of FFXIV Online and trying to learn the guitar a bit :D My fingers hurts a lot.
I bought myself a house if FF and spent like days trying to figure out, what kind of furniture and where I want. Also made the garden area outside xD This is probably the only house I ever afford, so had fun with it ;P
I hope you get into the uni and study hard!

Happy birthday! I hope you're okay!

You're welcome!

I have made brownie cookies today, so yeah it is great :D
Thanks for the wishes!

Don't worry about it. I'm never mad if I write with someone after weeks/months :D A diary you say? With my ups and downs. Sounds reasonable. A diary of pain, that will listen to overything, just like a psychologist, but for free. I did something similar years ago. I was writing down the good things on small pieces of paper and then put those pieces into a jar. But I was avoiding the bad things and then got sad, when I had nothing good to write. Silly. Kinda.

Ignorance can be a bliss, yes. I remember being often quite happy as a kid, but the further I've stepped into the cave of life, the more gloomy it was :D It is all the matter of perspective, point of view. We need to tackle the changes. Accept that nothing stands still. But sometimes it is very hard. We fight instead of letting ourselves swim with the river flow.

Reading is great. A nice therapy, peace of mind and focus. Minimal overthinking. Not sure if one can read TOO much, but I definetely was not reading enough lately. It helped me a lot during my heavy anxiety period. I was reading like one book per week, but then stopped, to see how can I handle life without this "escape".

I can recommend you "Ousama Ranking". Well, not so chill and hilarious as Komi, but there is definitely magic in it. It feels more like old Disney creation, or maybe Ghibli. A tiny kid, who can't hear or speak wishes to be a king, also got rather unusual friend.

Hihi, how are you holding up? Acceptable I hope? :) I've managed to stay healthy and even my mental state is improving. Well, despite all those gloomy news from around the world.

Do you like Komi-san? I found it quite relatable, so just because of this I will probably give it a high score at the end. I wish that this could be more drama, less comedy-like, but still, maybe it's better this way. Make some people more aware, yet without tears.
I hope that incoming week will be great for you!

I've read it! Thanks for the recommendation. However, I'm not sure If I'm any wiser in the regard of love. I'm not sure about my feelings. I will try to improve myself and look for answers ;)

Nice! I think that this is the only thing that matters. A close circle of people around, not the bigger picture. Greed was always present I think. People were just more patient and less direct about it. Now those silly zombies think that item will safe them or make them happy... What a joke :D In times like this people change for the worse... We would need something much bigger to really make them stop and think twice. I tried to have a gf, but I always screw something up or felt choked. So now I'm alone, believing, that this is better for me. Is this true? Well, no idea :D

Exploding, heh? Well, I know the feeling more than you can imagine :D Trying to find little things as well, enjoy what I can. Chocolate, cake i made myself, some games, anime or just a nice weather. We think that we need golden mountains to be happy, but that is just a delusion, as happiness comes from the inside :D
Yes, please push forward. There is still much more to discover :)

This crap will end sooner or later.

Yeah, 3rd lockdown here as well. Up and down all the time... How are we facing Covid? Well... Business are going down in flames, people losing jobs or earn less by doing the same. I like my home office, but some people are going nuts. Psychiatrists are having way more patients, children as well, as sitting whole year with "remote school" is not great :P Not sure if it can be called "all right", but it can always be worse :D

So basically, I work at home, then I watch stuff or play games. Sometimes go out on a walk. I hope this will end someday ._.

Happy Birthday! <3

Those poems are great! Thank you for sharing. I think I like Ithaka the most. Human life should not be like a climbing the mountain. We should sail for years, without rushing to the destination. Experience the wind, the storm, cherish the sun and be thankful to the waters that carry us. Am I even remotely correct about the meaning behind this? :)
I prefer water even without additional philosophy aspects. Was sailing long time ago, best times of my life to be fair.

I was always worried about my future. I saw no clear path, nothing really convinced me to fully dedicate efforts in specific direction. True career path? True talent? No idea. I simply went with the flow and when something was revealed before me - I've tried to see if it is for me. I work for a company, got a bunch of nice people around me and this is enough. I've could have been a freelancer, doing the same thing (QA), but I think it is too much of a hussle for me... Perhaps I simply don't want to try harder and prefer to float on my safe, little boat. But, to be fair - is this even bad? Why should I aim higher and higher? What is the point? I kinda fail to see one. When you reach the top, there will be nothing above and this is scary :)
Good, avoid the toxicity and comments of dumb people and trolls, you will simply feel better!